Michael of Little Peace Farm sent this out to his mailing list yesterday and he gave me permission to re-post. I think it sums up how a lot of you are feeling right now!
For a little commiseration, read on..
Welp, I've hit it. As promised, I've hit that annual mid-season wall and I am a grump! Every season, right about now, after several weeks of drought, fatal plant disease, bolted lettuce, corn-fed raccoons, unexpected bills, killed chickens, injury, less than stellar sales, rising fuel prices, tractor/equipment repairs, uncontrolable fatigue, Casea dog gone, I get really down about what we're doing here at the farm. What ARE we doing here?
When I answer that, it sounds all good and simple; WE ARE RAISING OUR FAMILY ON A FARM AND SHARING OUR LIVES AND HOW WE LIVE WITH OUR COMMUNITY, PERIOD! Sharing the fruit of our vocation with our family, friends and community. No matter how you say it, it sounds perfect but chasing that perfection is exhausting! We've been in a sprint since February and are feeling it.
Having said all that, most of our friends will say, "Well what GOOD has happened on the farm so far this year?" This e-mail would go unread for the length if I listed it all here but I'll name a few:
*we're still here!
*my wife and children!
*we've added lots of animals to our care!
*we're all relatively physically healthy!
*you're all supporting us!
*we're expanding our farm (more to come!)
*we're applying growing skills we've learned over the winter and seeing results!
*great winter growing in our new high tunnel!
These are all miracles and we know how much we have to be grateful for and we are profoundly grateful to God for our protection and care. We know the end result of our labors are healthier, happier community. We also know that WE LOVE BEING FARMERS. This is our calling and we're totally dedicated to it. That gives me peace, knowing that I'm fulfilling the vocation I was made for.
So I'll stop whining and look for those little miracles that surround us every day. Aah, I feel better now...."
(Written by Michael Scheidel at Little Peace Farm.)